Still Him is a deeply honest memoir about loving a partner with bipolar disorder-and navigating a mental health system that often excludes the people who know the truth best.

When CC Alva married her husband, she didn't know that love would one day require learning a new language-one shaped by manic episodes, medication trials, misdiagnosis, and years spent advocating from the outside of closed doors. As the illness reshaped their marriage, it also reshaped their children, their friendships, and CC herself.

This is not a story about giving up.

It is a story about staying-without losing yourself.
About faith, accountability, repair, and the quiet endurance of family life under pressure.
About the unseen labor of caregivers and the cost of silence.

Written with compassion and clarity, Still Him gives voice to partners and caregivers who are often invisible in conversations about mental illness-and invites a new narrative where love, honesty, and shared care can coexist with treatment and professional support.

For anyone who has loved someone through bipolar disorder, this book offers recognition, validation, and hope-without pretending the road is easy.